You know those pictures they show on TV or the movies where they start to zoom in and suddenly you realize the big picture is made up of a mosaic consisting of lots and lots of tiny pictures? And as the zoom continues you realize those tiny pictures are made of even smaller pictures? And it goes on and on and on? When I started this blog, I set the tagline to be “defining the circles that make me whole” but today I realized that I feel like I have been zooming in on the big picture to discover the joys of what those little pictures are that make up the mosaic that is me.
Marching forward into 2010 I know I have to look at those pictures of my life and decide which ones I need to change- should they be brighter? Should I change the focus? If I took the picture again, would the composition be completely different? Or is it a simple shift of perspective?
I think my life mosaic is currently made up of Spiritual, Wife, Mother, Health, and Creativity.
Spiritual– this picture has to be sharper and more in focus. While I know God and I have had some amazing discussion in the past year, I know I need to get to know Him more. And for me, the best way to start is reading the Bible all the way through. Today I started The Bible in 90 Days. I am part of the Mom’s Toolbox group who is also doing it. I hope to blog some parts of it, but blogging about it really isn’t the point. Reading the Bible is. And I plan on doing it.
Wife– I think this picture is currently a bit dull. I am praying about ways to make it brighter. A stronger relationship, better communication, common goals- those are blanket goals I can list here without giving away details I’m not ready to share on the internet.
Mother– In 2009 the picture of me as mother changed by adding another child to the mix. It was a much more difficult experience than I expected. And in August we started homeschooling Fuller, making things even more difficult. I think 2010 will be an extension of the picture since I know we still have to find the new normal as a family of four. I don’t have a specific goal to list right now, but I’m praying on it.
On a wife and mother related subtopic, I hope in 2010 I can get a better handle on managing my household. A cluttered home leads to cluttered lives and towards the end of 2009 I was feeling the clutter closing in on our lives. I think the first few weeks of this year will be centered clearing clutter.
Health– The 2010 picture of health will be the main focus for the first quarter of this year. This is because I’m having surgery sometime this month (more on it later, and it isn’t what you might think) and I hope this surgery will help me meet some other physical health goals I have for my life. And when it comes to mental health, I am going to make sure I get some more time to myself and out of the house. Once a week should do it.
Creativity– Photography. Blogging. Crochet. I plan on continuing all three. So far, that is as far as I have gotten with looking at those pictures. I am learning more about photography every day. Maybe I can try a 365 project again. I want to keep blogging and building community. And I have a scarf I really need to finish crocheting.
I see 2010 full of good possibilities and I looking forward to seeing how the pictures develop in my life mosaic.