This is a picture of me drying my hair. As in, I am using an actual hair dryer to turn my hair from wet to damp to dry.

Why is this a big deal? Well, it significance lies in the idea that a sign of depression is losing interest in taking care of yourself. I never went the route of ending bodily cleanliness. I would dress in appropriate attire when I had to go to work, but I think I would graze the edge of “business casual.”

I gave up styling my hair in a disguised effort of saving minutes on my morning routine. Those minutes I “reclaimed” for myself would be spent desperately begging myself to get out of bed and do something with my day. Once out of bed, I would wash my hair, throw in some product, and let the air do its thing. Makeup was a thing of my past. No one cared what I looked like anyway.

At least that is what I told myself.

Before things got out of hand for me, I would spend up to 45 minutes on my hair. I would use the hair dryer and a round brush and take the time to make up my face from foundation to mascara. I would brush and clip and twist to make it all just so.

Today I don’t demand as much time to make the effort to care about my looks. But to me, just taking the time to dry my hair is a step to show that I do actually care.

Self Portrait Sunday is a meme hosted by Cass of the excellent blog, Digi-Cass. A picture of yourself, taken by you, is the only item necessary to participate. (I just choose to add a little something extra.) Play along by posting a picture on your own blog and then leaving a link to it on today’s SPS entry on Digi-Cass.

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